It isn't even something you do three or four times.
Opening to abundance, Receiving what Life has to offer, is a continuous, developing, evolving process in which you keep realising that there is always more you can open up to.
You realise that there are always places within you that try to keep you safe, and that by numbing feelings, avoiding situations or triggers, or closing parts of yourself away, you inadvertently close off to that same amount of good, of abundance, in your life.
We cannot selectively shut down ; close to the 'bad' but not the 'good'. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way ;o)
What we do is we open. No holds barred OPEN. Shine our light. Beam Love. Dare to RECEIVE as much as we give. Flow. Dare to BE.
And in so doing, we realise that we do not need protecting from feelings. Feelings guide the way, that is all. Feelings give us information about what stories we are making up about what we are experiencing. Our thoughts dictate the type of vibration coursing through our bodies. Feelings are E-Motion : Energy in Motion.
I have had a pretty transformative time since Opening To Abundance II finished at the end of September. Two OTA programmes back to back. 6 months of soulwork. The work done, the seeds sown during that time, has been altering the cells of my body - but more about that later.
If I try to say 'it began with..' I can always track it back to something before that, and something before that, and something prior to that to! Who knows where the beginning of this story is, and how long my experiences have been opening me to where I am now, so I shall just tell you about a few things that come to mind from October and November - although there are so very many more gifts, compliments, interactions, signs and symbols that I will miss out here for sure. Too many to mention.
Opening is... realising that the time that most people became active, animated and engaged on your Facebook page is when you share your pumpkin obsession!
Who'd have thunk it?
I am so blessed.
Opening is... receiving tips on buying the best pumpkins, receiving dairy and gluten free pumpkin recipes, and whenever the Americans enjoy YET another pumpkin... (latte, pie, cocktail, dessert, smoothie, beer... you name it!) they mention you by name because they know how much you'll appreciate it.
And it feels so sweet to be thought of.
It feels like being included.
It feels like I get to experience these things through my gorgeous friends.
I am so blessed.
Opening is... receiving Pumpkin Spice Latte instant coffee sachets in the posts from across the world as a gift, free of charge, from someone you have never met,
just because she wants to make you smile.
I am so blessed.
Original artwork. My chosen mantras. Created and posted to me for free.
Again, by someone I have never met in the flesh.
God bless Facebook and the many women it has given me the chance to meet!
Hugging an Opening To Abundance beauty in the flesh before she travels off to America to meet up with many more of the Opening To Abundance ladies - feeling like I was there in spirit.
A few weeks after her return to the UK, receiving a package in the mail full of goodies, purchased and gathered while she was over there. A magazine from Kripalu. Some antique glass bottles. A handwritten note on her shopping list paper - love it! A huge beautiful turkey feather. Placed in my alter, along with the glass bottles.
My cup runneth over. Nearly - nearly - as precious as the photograph of so many of my OTA beauties together in one room. Priceless!
One Day My Heart Just Opened Up
Opening is... Vulnerability.
Reaching out to your network of online Soul Sisters who you spend your time supporting and encouraging, laughing with and crying with.
Asking for help.
Opening up the page to see streams and streams of comments so full of love and support that it exceeds your expectations, your sense of worthiness, and you are simply blown away.
You have two options in situations such as these.
Sometimes I keep some form of distance between myself and those comments. I do not fully take on board all of the deep love and meaning behind the words. I do not remind myself that real life human beings are on the other end of those words.
Or, I can let it in. Let it all in. Believe what they say. Accept wholeheartedly all the love and support that they are beaming at me. Remind myself that if these women were in the same room as me right now, they would be saying and meaning, all of this and more, while hugging the heck out of me.
With barely a thought, I instantly made the decision to absorb it all. I actually moved my arms back to make room for it, and tilted my head back with the force of what came at me. I actually physically felt it in my heart.
My heart went boom.
I felt all the energy enter my heart and I felt my heart swell.
I removed every single block to receiving in that instant.
It was quite remarkable.
And something else happened...
Not long afterwards, I received yet another package in the post, from yet another Opening To Abundance participant.
Whilst I witnessed women choosing and buying themselves mala beads, and I myself have wanted a mala necklace for years, I had long had the feeling that mine would be chosen or maybe even bought for me by someone else. I saw plenty I liked but none that I simply HAD to have. Plenty of them were priced at one and two hundred pounds. Yet none felt special or significant to me.
I let go, and trusted in the feeling that for whatever reason, it wasn't my job to select my own mala.
I never for one minute thought that it would come into my life so soon.
That it would be turquoise - the stone and colour that grounds me and makes my heart sing. That reminds me of my own inherent strength.
That is would have been worn and loved by a Soul Sister - previously owned by them. Meaning something to them.
That it would be so beautiful. And made predominantly with seeds instead of beads - simply Divine and full of nature.
That it would be so long. Long enough to mean that the full power of the mala rested on my abdomen - the place where the most healing is needed. The seat of my power. The area I turn in on myself. The place I have bottled up for a long time now.
That it would have been made by her very own hands.
There are no words.
Had my heart not opened up, I am not sure I could have received this, and all that it means.
Anything is possible.
Miracles do happen.
I am Opening To Abundance.