I took a shower on Sunday night none-the-less; too exhausted to clean it for myself first.
(side note : A 1 hour 20 minute journey took an exhausting 2 hours that day thanks to roasting in heat of the sun which bounced off the tarmac on the 4 lane motorway which had been closed down to one lane. And with none of us moving - no breeze through the window to bring relief! Singing along to my fave tunes kept me occupied while I cooked)
Stay with me here!
Today is Thursday... and I still hadn't done it this many days later.
In spite of the fact that
(a) it was incredibly warm again today, and
(b) I had hair dye on my roots which had been on my hair for the allotted development time already (Do NOT try this at home!),
I cleaned the dang bathroom!
Here is the thing that cleaning my bathroom taught me...
You see, I got to one of the corners around the bath where water collects and turns the sealant a funny colour. I had applied the cleaning solution all over the bathroom and was in the process of wiping it all thoroughly with the cleaner before rinsing.
So I get to this corner and wipe half-heartedly, not expecting to make any difference at all. I was putting effort into my cleaning where I knew it would make a difference, but barely touching the areas that I thought needed a complete overhaul - re-sealing or re-grouting or bleaching or something; who knows!
The discoloured bit of water build-up came was perched loosely, not remotely stuck at all and it came away effortlessly revealing the gleaming white bath sealant beneath. That patch looked brand spanking new.
Now I had NO idea that I had made these judgements about what was happening in my bathroom! That the staining was old, and permanent, and not easily fixable.
It was only my eyes popping wide open, practically bulging out of my head, and my sheer level of surprise which struck me and brought these limiting beliefs into my conscious awareness. While using the bathroom in the previous days and weeks I had been looking around and making the judgement that it was a massive job to get this room looking shiny and new again.
My first thought after my surprise about how effortlessly that build up came away was
"Aw, man! I'd have cleaned the bathroom sooner if I had known!!"
Seriously Ang??? Bonkers!
Wow. How many other areas of my life am I doing this with?
How much am I putting off because I have built it up so much in my mind and surrounded it with all kinds of stories that I am not even conscious of constructing?
My third thought after the 'Holy heck, why am I so surprised by this??' and then the 'I'd have done it sooner had I known it would be so quick and easy' was :
Waaa-hooooo! Let's get this done!
and I worked more assertively - harder and faster, with a sense of purpose - and got the bathroom gleaming white again in no time at all.
A new floor was laid not long ago so with that (freshly cleaned) and some decluttering of surfaces too, it actually looked really really good at the end. Holy moly! How different my outside reality was than the reality I had invented in my mind.
Hmmm... OK, so let me get this straight :
1) I make my mind up about things, completely psyching myself out of them before I've even given it a go...
2) I have NO idea when I am doing this, or who is making these judgements, as it sure as heck felt like all of this had gone on behind my back!?!
3) When I ignore my preconceptions and take action regardless, I find out that the task is easier, faster, less mentally challenging, and far more rewarding than I had ever imagined...
How many times are you telling yourself that a task will be hard?
That it will take a long time?
That it will require huge effort or energy, or skills or resources you don't currently have?
Could you select just one thing that you have built up in your mind, or which you have put yourself off of doing in some way - And begin?
Just do it.. Something. Anything.
Take action and let the process and the results do the talking, instead of that couch potato in your head that thinks it has all of the answers from where s/he sits!
Let me know how it goes xxx
Do we need to run away from the mundane and the every-day and the to-do list, in order to feel alive and fulfilled?
Just what if soul rocking beauty could be found inside of the washing up bowl?
What if soul deep meditation could be found in our gardening work?
What if our own Divinity could be seen reflecting off of that glass / vase / mirror right there next to us this very moment?
What if we used the life that we have, right here, and right now, as the Source for our ritual, our ceremony, our deep devotion to ourselves and our soul's purpose?
Our Self-love and our Self-care?
Our present moment bliss?
As the source of inspiration for all that we could ever hope to feel, be or accomplish?
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